The voices come out so deafening
For when I am my weakest
My self image they start threatening
I used to be afraid of them
I feared being swallowed whole
Knowing I needed to be strong
But feeling I had lost all control
The voices can be so relentless
Echoing every pain of the past
Every insult and each bad mistake
The voices ensure my sorrows last
Being told I was never good enough
Struggling to find my own path
Making poor choices along the way
In the quiet night I face their wrath
Sometimes I can simply block them
Other times they bring me to tears
I cannot let them destroy tomorrow
So I fight with my very own fears
I think that while I truly love life
I have forgotten how to just love me
Putting myself first seems so selfish
But to leave the past I have to let it be
As I try to love myself again
He stumbles into my crazy world
Once more I let my guard down
And happily a love unfurled
The voices will never be quiet
For new love does not erase the past
But I am learning to shut them out
I’m trying hard to make this love last
I would not be the same girl he loves
If I had not stumbled and fallen before
Even getting scared and lost at times
I settled for less, he’s giving me more
His love is louder than the voices
His touch quiets the doubt and pain
Each day the past shouts at me less
As we allow love to blossom again
