Thoughts I should not have

"I shouldn't, but I do"

You give me thoughts I should not have,
it happens when I see your av,
or when I read the things you write.
I know I should not, but to fight,
it is impossible for me.

I guess I should no longer be
here. No, I have to leave this place,
where I cannot avoid your face.

But I just can’t, I need to stay,
don’t have the strength to go away.

I need to see that you exist
and it would hurt me if I missed
one single feeling that you share.

You’ll never know, nor should you care,
that every time I see your av
you give me thoughts, I should not have.