The ache of the loneliness I feel,
Covered up for my friends,
If only they knew.
I have an emptiness inside you see,
Always present, always there,
A wound so deep it can’t be healed,
But I hide it well with a laugh on my lips.
I see couples holding hands,
Kissing as I wander past,
I smile to myself but cry inside,
Why can’t I have that?
I’ve always felt different within,
Never quite fitted with the pack,
He gave me what was missing,
The worth I never had.
He built me up,
Showed me what love was meant to be,
Never faltered when I tried to run,
The man I had searched a lifetime for.
I told him I needed space today,
But I wanted him to notice my pain,
I needed his arms, his kiss and his words,
I needed him.
I’m an open book to him,
Always honest, always there waiting,
But I hid away this time,
Need time to think.
Thoughts of losing him devastate me,
The rare human touch I have, gone forever,
The man who knows me, understands and accepts me,
My tears fall heavily.
He is my rock, my one true love,
His faults are many, his life a challenge,
But he can be himself with me,
Because I know him, understand and accept him.
So I will return to him,
Kiss him gently on his lips and say I’m sorry,
Become his lover once more,
Give all of me in the hope he gives me all of him.
Inside I know the truth,
Fear stops me from leaving this,
A tiny part of him is worth everything to me,
And piece by piece I lose myself again.
