So… About my roommate. She is rapidly turning out to be not at all what I expected. In a good way, but, damn was I wrong about that. She is so sweet. I know it’s weird that I’m leading with news about her and not me, but this is both fascinating and adorable. We’ll get to me shortly.
Anyway, it turns out that Elle is not not so much a slut who’s fucking half the guys in the unit as she is basically sexless. In fact, she has fucked one person ever, and has never touched a man sexually at all. What’s happening when she disappears at night is that she’s going out so it looks like she’s sleeping with one of guys in the unit. I figured out who she’s been spending time with, and he is very obviously, so, so gay. I’m sure he’s getting the same benefit of comfort in the unit that she is. This social symbiosis is the cutest fucking thing ever. Seriously.
I think she’s onto me, though. Maybe they both are. They may have caught me glancing casually over my shoulder as they disappear together one too many times. He gives me some weird looks, and she looks at me in a different way this week than she did last week. I almost hope she likes me. Elle popped into my head while I was getting myself off the other night. I looked over at her bunk and she just flashed through my mind. Interestingly, the first image I conjured was not of her and me, but of her and Azalea. Even in my imagination the sight of her licking your clit and the sound of your voice as she edged you was so fucking beautiful, my love.
Of course, my imagination did eventually incoroporate me into the fantasy. At first, Elle teased my nipples while Lea fucked me with her tongue and ran her nails along the lines where my thighs meets my torso. It didn’t take long at all for me to cum once as I thought about all that, but my fantasies kept on going. My thoughts were running wild. My mind spun nearly out of control. The second orgasm took me completely by surprise. Every bit of erotic imagery blacked out and all I could process was sensation. It felt like minutes, but I suppose it was probably only ten or twenty seconds. About a thousand hard, fast beats of my heart later, I could see again, but my whole body was still numb.
After that I was so out of it that I was still naked when Elle got back from her regular Tuesday tryst. Well, imitation tryst. All I had time to do was to pull the chain to extinguish my lamp and then hurriedly toss a sheet over me and my toy when I heard her at the door. I just pretended to be asleep in the dark, and she at least pretended to buy it. Even if she did think I had been sleeping though, the scent of me was everywhere. It filled the room, and saturated each breath she took. My mattress was wet with that scent.
There’s no way she didn’t know I had just gotten off. No way at all. In truth though, I kind of liked it. I feel a little bad, because I have no way of knowing if she was into it, she could have been. It’s not like I did it for her benefit anyway, I just feel a little strange getting off on it. I do, though. I hope she likes it, certainly. It makes me feel weirdly intimate with her. Of course I know that’s just a fantasy, but it feels like pretty harmless fun and it’s made me smile once or twice.
Who thinks I should just ask her if she’s into me? I mean, she’s gay, I’m gay. While I understand that’s not a real reason to consider someone as a partner in most situations, it’s already shocking enough that there are two of us here in a unit so small in the first place. Not a lot of girls in the company. It’s actually just Elle, me, the major, and one of the sergeants who I don’t really know yet. Maybe I’m just insane. Hooking up with your roommate is never really a good idea… Not that hooking up with someone across the base is all that much better. I just want to be hooking up with someone other than my vibrator.
Deployment somewhere this remote is excruciating for me. I really miss the city. Any city, anywhere would be better than this. I also miss not being called ‘sir’. I have to say that this “temporary” assignment is starting to feel semi-permanent already. The loneliness is almost unbearable sometimes. Including the civilian population there’s still less than two hundred people inside ninety-two kilometers – and the overwhelming majority of them are… extremely masculine.
These months without you may prove to be unendurable, but there will be nothing to do about that except literally go mad with my passion for you. I guess I’ll just keep getting wet and teasing Elle with the scent of my desire. I really hope she likes it… Or at the very least that she isn’t bothered by it. How long do we think it will be until she says something if I don’t bring it up first?
In other news, this entire assignment is stupid. The preposterous excercise of teaching these goons how to use all this equipment becomes increasingly absurd every day. What’s the point of developing technology like this if we have to turn it over to jackasses like these? I mean, obviously due its potential to save a lot of lives, but damn. My patience is being tried.
I am not looking forward to tomorrow. It’ll be the first field test where we let the boys run the whole thing by themselves. I have to admit that I feel a lot safer working with them when they’re taking their orders from me. I really hope they don’t poison anything or blow themselves up. For all the practical uses of this thing, it is so prone to malfunction that it makes me flinch everytime we start or end a test. I fucking said it wasn’t ready for the field. Ugh… Sorry about that. We’ve all bitched about this before. It just continues to be maddening. I am incredibly frustrated… I could really use one of your faces in my pussy to break this tension.
I miss you and love you more every day. You are the most important people in my world. Probably the most important people in the world at all. Your letters were all lovely. Lea, yours was really sweet, even if you’re a bit embarrassed, and yours was exactly as funny as I expected it would be, Willow. You’re so cute. You’re all beautiful and amazing and you make me so happy. All the love and kisses.
