Whatever guided you and I first
seemed to be simple chemistry,
tiny atoms immediate and forever,
seizing one upon one another.
Our secrets helplessly spilled,
not every one of them at first,
we were too careful then
at what we could relinquish
even though we wished
to just give it all away.
It was as if a little more pain would
make the entire heart follow next.
And we spread beyond
our own stories into one,
an involuntary joining that
flowered in a mysterious light.
It was the glow of
all I’ve ever wanted.
And I still crave to feel that
light always reciprocated.
And even now when you may be just
guided by our palpable echo,
by what has always been too familiar,
longing still ripples throughout me.
To be inside of you in ways
that have nothing to do
with bodies simply locking
and pushing far past any
known previous border.
I’m afraid to say this
and so much more to you,
I have to speak for a moment
as if you’ll never these words….
What keeps me here is
what glows beyond her.
I make no secret of this now
even though I keep her like one.
I’ll keep that knowledge
like an endless shadow,
a twin identity that is
forever smoldering within.
Whatever us ever closer at first
seemed to be simple chemistry,
tiny particles immediate and magnetic,
instinctively wrapping together.
Our secrets helplessly twined,
I would give them all away again
because even now when I’m alone,
everything still sings of you.
It’s as if a little more pain would
make the entire soul follow next.
And we spread beyond our own beings
and into an indistinguishable one,
a sometimes too painful joining
that flowered into an immutable light.
It’s still the glow of
all I’ve ever wanted.
And I still ache to feel that
radiance always reciprocated.
And even now when you feel me inside
in ways that will seem too familiar,
I can’t say that I’ve ever left,
longing still courses throughout me.
I’m afraid to confess this
and so much more to you,
I have to speak for a moment
as if you’ll never absorb these words…
What keeps me here is
what glows through her core,
I make no secret of this now
because I fold into her like one….
What keeps me here is
what beats through my blood,
forever tuned to her like a current
that has swept through all
the things in me without name.
I’ll keep that knowledge
nestled in infinite embers,
a twin flame that is
forever burning within.
It’s as if a little more pain would
make an entire being follow next.
