I am not toxic;
I return to show you to yourself
I do not break you
When I break something it stays broken
You heal over and over again
You remember the pain that I bring and yet you let me in
You are not a masochist who craves pain
You are a self-healer and you know that to heal you must first be hurt more
This is what I bring you. The ability to heal.
I remind you you’re alive
I am not a sadist;
I don’t take pleasure from your pain
I call you to ensure you are not broken
When I come to you, you are already broken
I come to begin your healing
There is first the pain of cleansing your wounds
Then there is the pain of bandaging you to me
When you’re healed there is the pain of removing my bandage
Then you hurt yourself with another man.
I call you to ensure you are not broken.
If you are broken by someone
I return to show you to yourself.
You see me as one who brings you pain
I see you heal yourself when you see yourself
I am not toxic
