You left, as you should, with every right and every reason.
And asked me to find my answers.
I expected the pain, but not the loneliness.
This time, it made sense, and it feels right.
Except…
I wish that it had ended differently somehow
I wish that it would hurt my heart less somehow
I wish that it would all make more sense somehow.
Every time I remember your butterfly kisses
Every time I remember our whispered conversations
Every time I remember my hand gently cradled in yours.
Every time I almost write to tell you about my day
Every time I almost text to make you laugh
Every time I almost call to cry.
But this time,
I really will do none of these things, because my will really is stronger than that.
I really will do none of these things, because I respect your pride and honor still.
I really will do none of these things, because I’m moving on to find my own truth.
There are still moments in my day,
where I wish you were somehow a part of my life.
I hope you never forget.
I may have loved you.
I do miss you.
Goodbye.
