It should’ve really been here to
Share this night fever with.
Maybe her skin was too familiar,
Maybe she reminded me too much
Of where I come from.
There was another time, another place,
Always with the same music playing,
Singing like a siren call to the blood,
Bodies pieced together in secret,
Churning away in unmistakable heat,
Hearts hammering in codes whispering
We can only tremble for so long inside.
I once gave her everything,
Maybe I had nothing
Left to give after that.
It really should’ve been her I held
After these young fevers ebbed away.
Maybe I would see too much of myself there,
Always wondering if I could ever be enough.
The city was awash in the dark
And neon as if from some dream
Exploding too soon with so much light
The night we had one more dance
When I finally broke her heart
And could never look back after
The last time I pressed into her being.
But I once have her everything,
Maybe I couldn’t give anything more.
Maybe she’ll never forgive me for that.
