I was spinning, spiraling, losing
control of all that was earthly.
The result of betrayal, of treacherous
plans, of schemers who prey on naivete.
The darkness approaching, enveloping
me in its quiet seduction. Nothingness.
So easy to allow the blackness to take
over, to sleep the sleep of the defeated.
I lay in the bosom of self-pity, lay there
awaiting madness, awaiting relief,
awaiting an eternity of pain, of not
knowing the warm kiss of love.
The icy cold fingers of depression
are deceiving. The numbness soothes
the pain, but it removes the senses and
strips what little human dignity that remains.
And then you appeared, offering only a
finger to touch, a calming voice to hear
and the hint of a promise, an offer of help,
a vessel to a sanctuary, a safe haven.
A calmer presence to my chaotic ways,
you came with stability and friendship
and asked for nothing in return.
Your lifeline brought a glimmer of light
into an unthinkable darkness, shining
like a beacon into my tortured soul,
raising my consciousness out of the pits of loneliness.
My gratitude was slow in coming,
such was the damage to my psyche.
Yet you persevered, fed my soul,
nurtured me back to a good place
And offered me your heart.
Love grew from that chance meeting,
love that continues to grow each day.
For it was your love that saved me,
brought me back from the brink.
I am whole again, able to face life’s
challenges and adversities, but I am not alone.
I have a partner, a lover, a guide to help
me along the way, to watch my halting steps
and catch me when I fall.
Your love sustains me, drives me, fuels me
as nutrition, gives me reasons to live.
It is this love, this giving, this care
that is my inspiration, my impetus,
my very reason for existence.
I love you so…
