I forgot how you demand my attention
Nothing compares to the way you feel
The paralyzing strength of your grip
For in your absence my old friend
I find myself forgetting the dance we do
Tonight you make your presence known
As I grip the covers and beg for relief
To live a life in pain is no way to be
but escaping you seems impossible
because even on my strongest nights
you seem to easily invade my privacy
Don’t count me out because I am a fighter
you have yet to see the height of my will
I am taking back my life one day at a time
He has given me beautiful dreams to pursue
So I beg for you to loosen your grip on me
as a deep breath I desperately struggle to take
The tears burn my eyes as they well up
If only they took the pain with them as they fell
No matter how much light and love is in my life
Your presence attempts to smother my soul
Tonight my head is buried in my tear soaked pillow
Muffling the sound of the not so silent tears I cry
I want to scream in the darkness my anger
Pain can feel free to now leave my body alone
This is the one time in my life I have found love
With thoughts of him I am now arming myself
I am wearing our love like a warrior’s shield
Taking on my old friend pain with a vengeance
A mental war I am waging without surrender
Pain can only control my life if I allow it to win
His love came out of nowhere as a beautiful gift
My mind fills now with memories of our journey
With a deep breath I loosen the grip of my sheets
Pain wants a war but with love’s help I will win
