My Karma

How are you able to do this,
Push my buttons 
And make me scream 
In frustration. 
I can not understand this, 
It makes no sense. 
When did laughing 
Become screaming, 
Digging nails into palms, 
Deep breaths needed to calm. 
A smile beginning to form 
Through the anger. 
Confusion. 
Mixed feelings, 
Like a crazy person. 
Must I endure this? 
My curse, 
Or my blessing, 
I can not tell. 
I miss you, 
I hate you, 
I love you, 
I hate you! 
Stop this, 
This madness.
Seriously. 
Unless this is your plan? 
To drive me crazy. 
To make me realize, 
Not even a touch is needed. 
Just simple words, 
And it could boil my blood. 
A mix between hatred 
And love. 
What is it that I am feeling? 
I can not leave, 
It must be my curse. 
My karma, 
For whatever 
I have done 
To wrong the Gods.