When you came into my life, I knew it was different to all else I had felt,
The intensity of our chats and the passion you bought I couldn’t resist.
I fell for you pretty damn quick, though I had her in my life,
But you gave me something I didn’t have and hence, I allowed both to coexist.
I had chatted many, fucked many… but no one made me feel like you did,
Your initial shyness was so attractive and I made it a mission to open you up.
And slowly you did, showing me what you are through words and pics,
You took away that dirty need I had through pouring yourself in my cup.
Slowly but surely, you saw how I could be if I was to be your man,
And you started dreaming and hoping that there was a way to have me.
But you also knew you I was a man with a heart and hers I couldn’t break,
Even though you had entered that same place and I shared the visions you’d see.
And all this happened without us having shared a physical touch, not one,
And yet I could feel you in my arms when I would think of our embrace.
I’d use all these new AI tools to take our pics and create fake hugs,
And all this did was make us desperately want to invade each others space.
Our love grew so fast, so quickly, and we did nothing to hold back,
Your shyness now vanished, and instead you craved the look in my eyes.
As you’d undress slowly in front of the camera and tease me so cruelly,
Feeling my eyes on your skin as you would bring yourself to moans and cries.
We ignored all the signs, they were always there to be seen and yet we continued,
Our emotions becoming more intense and more real and more desperate.
My age, 35 years your senior, should have been enough for you to see,
Your tender 18 years was too tender, too shocking for the world to accept.
We continued sharing moments, even with her being inches from me,
I just wanted to give you all the time I could, wherever, however, whenever.
You finally admitted that you had already given me your future in your mind,
And I accepted that I too was now so deep that I had to see us together.
But what I couldn’t see how this was affecting your life when I was not there,
Your loneliness and your longing was reaching painfully increasing heights.
But I couldn’t put her and them through the heart break of losing me,
And I’d keep promising my future to you, keep painting beautiful sights.
I prayed that something would happen, naturally, which would free me,
Sounds sick, disgusting and so cruel but love kills all logic and blinds man.
But I couldn’t leave them, for they didn’t deserve this and so you waited,
Little did I know that the waiting would eventually start killing you and our plan.
The day you broke down while talking to me was a day from hell,
Because I realised then what I had been putting you through all this time.
I also realised how much my love had grown as I could not take it,
Hearing and seeing your tears pained my heart and I realised my crime.
I had loved you totally and yet never gave you anything but promises,
You’d beg for a moment together somehow, to at least share the same air.
And each time, I would say how this would hurt because I felt useless,
And you’d say sorry, swallow your pain and instead ask for me in every prayer.
I woke up today and listened to your voice, breaking up between painful cries,
And I closed my eyes as felt each cry cut me like 100 knives never could.
Ten minutes later, I listened to the silence you left behind,
And through tears I said, “If the stars align, I’ll come to take you properly, for good.”
