Once upon a memory.
You came into my life when my heart was tired.
(A part of my past played with my mind, because sadly that’s what my ex was good at doing.)
So when you arrived into my life, you took my life by surprise.
And you loved on me, and I loved on you the same.
You held me close, and I held you the same.
I felt the sincerity in your eyes, and knew that you were real.
And I wanted to share in that realness with you.
(But my mind, wouldn’t allow my heart to return that sincerity to your heart.)
I cried later, when I realized that you had moved on with someone new, because my love for you arrived later than it should have.
(And then the years passed by, and that love never faded.)
But after talking to you in person for those few precious hours, I knew then that you could only love me as a friend, and nothing more.
I then realized that I had lost you twice.
Because your previous relationship had changed how your mind worked, and it was guarding you heart.
Your smile wasn’t the same, and your hug was different because he did a good job in extinguishing your inner flame.
I should have told you then, how I was starting to feel, but I was afraid of being hurt again.
And because of my hesitation, your heart got hurt because he didn’t cherish you enough.
I’m sorry for not giving you all of me, like you did for me.
And I wish you the happiness that you’re seeking.
Because once upon a memory that happiness stood before my eyes, and I let an old hurt take it away without knowing it.
