A SPECIAL PHOTO
by Rumple Foreskin Sensual and seductive, she lay amid the rumpled sheets of the bed where we’d just made love, relaxed and at ease within the golden skin of her petite, perfect body. Not posing, not looking at the camera so much as through it, into the photographer, into me. Waiting with an expression of amused tolerance for me to finish and rejoin her. It was a special photo of a very special model. I’m in the military doing special operations type work that’s supposed to be hush-hush. When people ask, I tell them I’m a security consultant specializing in on-site training. And, in a way, that is what I do. But that’s about to be past tense. This is my last overseas tour of duty. In two weeks I’ll be getting some time off, a promotion, and then become a headquarters man, a desk jockey, advising more than supervising the other, younger, guys who’ll still be doing this type of work. After spending eleven months on this bitch of an assignment, most of it in the bush, that’s starting to sound real good. It’s against regulations to get personal mail in the field. That’s supposed to be collected when you go in for the monthly debriefing, delousing, and debauchery. Out here, it’s just job related shit. That’s the official line, anyway. But there are ways. I was sitting alone in an early afternoon patch of shade outside my hut unable to take my eyes off the photo I’d just pulled from the envelope. It was almost a year since I’d last seen Holly Hightower, and maybe an hour or so since I last thought about her and about how we’d tried to cram a lifetime into one month. All that because my brother’s girlfriend had an idea. “Hey Logan, you remember Holly Hightower, don’t you?” My kid brother, a high school senior, had just come in from football practice. He was leaning against the doorsill to the guest room in my parents’ house. I’d just finished unpacking and was sitting on the side of the bed, lacing on my running shoes. “Sure. She was behind me in school. Cute as hell, but there wasn’t much of her. Dated this college guy, can’t remember his name, all through high school. They looked so much alike it was spooky. Both were short, good-looking, blue-eyed blondes. I think they got married right after she graduated. Why?” “Well, she and that guy, his name’s Bruce Dengler, they had a kid about a year ago. A few months later he split. And before you ask how I know all that, it’s ’cause I’m dating her sister, Heather. Well, when I mentioned you were coming home for a month, she decided it’d do Holly a lot of good to get out of the house. So she wondered if you’d be willing to go on a double-date, you know, me and Heather, you and Holly.” I almost laughed. I’m a little old for double-dating. But Craig and I had always been close. So I decided it might be fun to tag along and check out his dating style, not to mention his girlfriend. And, okay, the idea of spending an evening with Holly Hightower had its appeal. That’s why I agreed. Which proves, I guess, that sometimes it’s better to be lucky than good. On Saturday, Craig said Heather was spending the night with her big sister so we’d pick them both up at Holly’s place. Heather turned out to be a younger, slightly taller version of her “big” sister. It was obvious why Craig was nuts about her and even I could tell she felt the same way about him. As for Holly, she looked even better than I remembered. In part, because her face and figure had filled out a little. Unlike back in high school, she had boobs. Not big, but in perfect proportion to the rest of her slim body. When I said she looked great and mentioned her improved figure, she seemed pleased. “That’s what having one of these will do for you,” she said, jiggling the laughing baby she held in her arms. But there was more to her improved looks than just a few extra pounds and inches. The Holly I’d known was a girl, a cute, quiet, super-nice cheerleader type. The Holly I’d just been re-introduced to was a woman, someone who’d been hurt but knew she could endure. I liked this new Holly more, a lot more. The baby was named Hope, a tiny, blue-eyed, heart breaker with an uncanny resemblance to her mother and aunt. When I mentioned this, Heather said all the women in their family were runts and had names starting with the letter, H. The babysitter arrived and Holly gave her a quick orientation while I watched Craig and Heather playing with the baby. Over supper at an Italian restaurant they all tried to catch me up on the local gossip at the same time. During a pause, I heard myself asking Holly about her separation. I started to apologize, but she smiled, laid her fingertips on the back of my hand, and said it was okay. At least I think she said it was okay. That gentle touch overloaded my circuits. It seems she and her husband struggled for years to have a kid. Then when they hit the jackpot he started going weird. A few months later she learned he was having an affair with his fitness instructor. When Holly confronted him, he confessed, and then moved out. There was no way we could all agree on the same music, so going dancing after dinner was out. Instead, we caught a movie and then, at Holly’s suggestion, went back to her house. “That way I can send the babysitter home early and these children,” she gestured at my brother and her sister sitting in the front seat, “can have some time alone.” We talked all the way back. She’d gotten a degree in education after putting her husband through law school. Now she was an elementary school teacher. “What can I tell you? I love kids.” At her place, Craig and Heather did as ordered and took the babysitter home. A few minutes later they came back but stayed out in the car to do their thing in private. Inside, we old folks talked over coffee until the baby started fussing. I followed Holly into the dim blue light of the baby’s room and watched as she checked out the situation. “Houston, we have a problem. The diaper must not have been on right ’cause we’ve got major leakage. And this nasty-nice baby hates messy.” After Hope had a new nightgown and diaper, Holly looked over at me. “Logan, would you mind holding her while I change the bed. It’s pretty soppy.” I’ve handled my fair share of babies, even helped in a delivery, but this was different. The moment this baby looked up at me and grinned, I was hooked. By the time her momma had replaced the sheet and blanket, Hope was nestled on my chest and nodding off. At first Holly just looked at the two of us with this odd smile. Then she leaned down and took Hope who stretched and yawned. No longer having a baby to comfort, I slipped outside to wait, and think. This feeling I had was unreal. It’d been years since I’d last seen Holly Hightower. There’d been many women in many places since then. But now I was falling for this one, hard. Before I could get my tangled thoughts even semi-organized, the source of my confusion came out. Motioning for me to be quiet, she took my hand and led me away from the door. What she did next still amazes me. Just before we reached the living room, she stopped, turned around, and looked up at me. “Logan McClain, if you don’t kiss me I’m going to slug you.” The funny thing is, I believed her.